clutter

 

Right now, my mind is full of CLUTTER! I have soo much to think about and SO little time before I go back to college. I think what has been on my mind the most is being loved. It sounds SO corny, but what person doesn't think about that? I've been loved before and I know I am loved by my friends and family and GOD, but sometimes a girl wants to be loved more than anything in the world. I have settled for less than I deserve in the past and now I am ready to move on. This summer, there have been so many things that haven't worked out the way I have wanted them to... but reallyyy? How selfish am I. I know that God has everything in His hands and my plans for my life are definitely not the right plans. But how are you supposed to deal with BIG things that don't go your way? It's HARD. But then I realize all the beautiful things in my life that I take for granted and I can suddenly breathe. And those  feelings of love that are suddenly crushed... were not meant to be. Or maybe just not now... Patience.